"As I opened my eyes, a tear rolled down. I found myself on his bed staring the roof. I knew it was too late to realize anything. I still couldn't understand what really had happened. I could hear the vibration of my phone. I knew it was his call but I was unable to move. Suddenly, I heard him abusing me, he came near me and slapped me. I looked towards him and stood up to put on my clothes. The tears were dried by then. I could feel the coldness flowing through my spine. I left his room and his apartment. I started walking on the road without any purpose. Everyone was staring me as if they know who I was. I took an auto from the main road and headed towards the office. "Why did I do that?" I asked myself. The driver was asking me the way to the office but I was not in my complete senses. He then asked a pedestrian passing by and there we reached the office. I saw him standing near the bikes, he had been waiting for me since so long. He knew where I was and why I went. I was numb. My eyes were dry. He could feel that coldness. He asked me where I was and I told him everything. He fell on the ground, he was helpless and weeping like a small child. Then he stood up, held my arm tightly. I could feel the pain but I was unable to utter a word. I was once again abused, he wanted me to die. I kept quiet. I knew it was already too late. He left me home and went away. I realized everything, but nothing could be done then. I wanted to cry out loud, I wanted to die. But when I stepped forward towards the death he held my hand once again. He wanted to be my support. He loved me truly, with all my heart. He was hurt, broken and shattered. But he was there with me. He wanted to make me normal again. He wanted me to live my life as before. He told me that he still loves me. I knew he loved me more than anything in this entire galaxy. We were on the go in our lives but somewhere in our hearts the incident was still alive. It was becoming difficult for us to bear that pain. He told me once again that he loved me. He never wanted me to remember my past. Whatever happened, let leave it in the past and move forward as if it was a new life. He was right to some extent. But the past is like a shadow. No matter where we go, it always follows us. I couldn't explain this to him. I could feel a change in myself. But either it was a positive or a negative, I didn't want to know it. All I knew was that I had realized everything and never wanted to repeat my mistakes ever in my life. Today, he is alone. I want to go to him. But he doesn't believe me anymore. And I don't want to hurt him. I don't want to bother him. He forbade me to write a story because it was a secret but I wrote because I wanted to reveal the truth. The secret which lies somewhere within my heart, the secret which was undisclosed. I wanted everyone to know that I love him too. I love him with all my heart. I can't live without him. I couldn't express my thoughts to him. But I believe he knows about my feelings. I never want to make him feel regret for anything. I just want him to understand the fact that we can't be together as before. I want to apologize for everything I did. And I loved him yesterday, I love him today. And as I promised him that I will love him till my last breath. I wish if I had "forever" to love him." This story is based on a real incident. She was an ordinary girl with ordinary looks and an ordinary life. She was tagged as a "slut" after an incident. He loved him with all his heart and soul and never wanted to lose her. She loved him too but was unable to confront him after that particular incident. She was in despair which further leaded to severe depression. She was not capable of coping up with the situations and thus her regrets took her life away. May her soul rest in peace!
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